Fail

Well, at least he didn't just pull the "fade". The guy from last night emailed that he thinks we approach life too differently. He is too "rough and tumble" for me. Ok. If he thinks so, he is definitely right. He said he had been on his best behavior and yeah it was just on the edge of unacceptable for me. But I enjoyed other parts of him.

I guess I should thank him for having more foresight than I did. Of course, I was not on my best behavior because I no longer believe in that. Being on best behavior only leads to multiple dates where you don't really get to know the real person. So I gave him the ability to see clearly.

Oh and the kissing was not compatible. It wasn't awful, so I thought it could be worked on, but I am saved from having to do that. :) Thank you universe. Now will you please bring my handsome prince!!!!

So tired of the up and down

Had a second date tonight. And perhaps I am overreacting, but I don't think so. It was a really nice date. Going really well. We went to a tea shop and just talked and then went to walk on the beach. Had some nice kisses. I was totally comfortable. Perhaps too comfortable. As the date went on I asked less questions and talked more. Right in the last 10 minutes, I just felt like I lost him. Like he didn't know how to react to what I said - didn't agree? Somehow it offended him? No idea. The goodnight kiss was so puritan and quick. He said he had a really good time. Why can that phrase be the kiss of death or actually the truth? This is really sucking!!! Before those 10 minutes he seemed really into it - really into me. So confused.

This comes shortly after a 3rd date with another guy that I thought went really well and then turned in that same sort of end of the date vibe, a few random texts for the next two days and then disappearance. So I am going to be kind of pissed if this just happens again. Graaaaarrrrrrgh@!

Really nice date. Awkward plutonic ending. Annoying.

Bueller Bueller

So that other pawn who never responded to my text? He sent me a text wishing me luck on my event like 2 days after my post. I responded - asked him a direct question. No response. A day later, I sent him another text with a question. It took him 2 days to answer. I responded. Nothing. I called after my event like he asked me to - left a message. Nothing. It's been over a week. I don't know whether to be pissed, to be sad, or not to care at all.

In the past month and a half - the guy that I fought with before our second date and had hilarious drama with has been creeping back in with email. I finally agreed to go out with him again. (He didn't ask until I asked what we were doing with our innocent email correspondence. He wasn't being pushy at all, just emailing about daily life and such.) It was pretty good. Maybe I can call him IH2S - Is He Too Skinny. He is a runner and he is very skinny, but he isn't a total health nut and likes wine! He may push my buttons too much. Today was great - the emails leading up to this have nice. I think I was in a bad place when we went out last time. Because when he pushed my buttons back then it was sooooo frustrating and annoying. Now - it doesn't bother me as much. My temper isn't as short. For instance, he suggested meeting somewhere else today because of the Cubs game. I hate last minute changes and I hate making decisions (he didn't suggest a place just "can we go somewhere else"). But I was excited to see him instead of being annoyed. We shall see.