So much to think about

There is so much to tell since my last post. 2 more dates with Mary, both sort of thought provoking. Maybe tonight's even more so than last week's. Another date with Peter who I wish I was attracted to, because we had a great time. More cancelled dates. I just don't know how I feel about the whole shabang. I am sort of disenchanted with dating - which I guess I never was enchanted by it because of starting so soon in after the breakup. I am having fun with it all, but just not feeling magical about any of it.

And am I ever going to meet someone my age who isn't a bit Effed up? I just found out that Mary has a bit of a problem with "anxiety". Great. Why do I attract men with emotional issues? Or am I in denial thinking that I handle my attitudes and emotions better than the men I attract who are anywhere from bi-polar and in denial even though they have attempted suicide to ADD or have issues with anxiety and readily admit it. yeah - you heard me.